Train

What do I call it

The Feeling When I say Goodbye

The noise of the chains

Of the Engines

The noises the Trains Make

At the Station

The Feeling When I Wish My Best

Hoping the sound won't beckon

Beckon My Train To come

I don't want to Let go the Smell of Your Kisses

I don't want to Let go the Goosebumps Your Smile Gives Away

I don't know what to call it

I don't know what the answers would say

Because I am lost inside the train 

I am Lost Without You

In this City Full of Long Distances

City full of Wanderers

City that will make me miss You

I hate this Pain 

Please Kiss me tight

Please Hold me With your Smile

I don't want to Go

I don't want to Get in the Train.

-Aayush

I tried my Best to replicate that feeling when I went to Railway station to bid Goodbye

to My beautiful Mom and My Brother.

        Voice Of A Drunk Twenty Two Years Old Adult!

I woke up in the morning with a mild headache and a very strong urge to not go to office. But I had to control that urge and continue living my life. But then my Friend Rebecca replied. And suddenly it hit me, the fact that I was drunk yesterday and I might have posted something wrong in someone’s wall. But I was surprised to see what I wrote because her message was full of praises. She even quoted the lines which I have bolded. Well the message looks like this.

“Don’t waste your time on things you least want, don’t waste your life on things you think you need, live for what you want and what you can stand for, there you will attend your nirvana. Not everybody can afford to become Buddha neither they can renounce the attachments. We are humans, why waste time on living life like god?

I may sound like a preacher. No I am not. I am just a twenty two years old living my life, i do not have experience or the knowledge whatsoever to talk preach. I am not a philosopher, I am just a drunk young naive guy who is searching for meaning to his life. I am drunk and I have ‘two rounds of scotch’ old experience.

I am busy searching with heart but the universe is not conspiring so that i can grasp the things I want the most. “Paulo Sir, I am sorry old man.”

But if you want something by heart, its not the universe Who conspires, you have to become the master of your own conspiracies, because wanting is not enough, not everybody is destined to meet their Alchemist.

We are born to this earth with a pre-written destiny they say.And I think life is about how you turn that pre-written destiny around to your own benefit. Life is not about living for others, its about learning to live together. Life is simplicity. I never understood why those respectful sons of bitches philosophers always had to make it tough. Make it sound like life is about competition.

I am not an enlightened one. But I sure as hell do know that life is not competition, its about finding your strength and polishing it, not to reach the top of the social chain, but share it with the person whose strength is your weakness. Its about completing yourself with your other half, life is completion not competition.

I am 4 rounds of scotch old now. But sober enough to realize that this might have started to sound like creepy suicide note. Laughing out loud. I am sorry to spam your fb wall but i am drunk and cute, that sure as hell does invite a forgiveness.”

Well she says that she forgives me. That is sweet of her. But I ended up deciding that I must drink pretty often.

How Rich I Have To Be?

"What I desire and What I need?"

The Gap In Between is the extent to which I have to be Rich.

Well I do wish I had loads of Cash On me but that is not the way I want to design my Richness.

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