Train

What do I call it

The Feeling When I say Goodbye

The noise of the chains

Of the Engines

The noises the Trains Make

At the Station

The Feeling When I Wish My Best

Hoping the sound won't beckon

Beckon My Train To come

I don't want to Let go the Smell of Your Kisses

I don't want to Let go the Goosebumps Your Smile Gives Away

I don't know what to call it

I don't know what the answers would say

Because I am lost inside the train 

I am Lost Without You

In this City Full of Long Distances

City full of Wanderers

City that will make me miss You

I hate this Pain 

Please Kiss me tight

Please Hold me With your Smile

I don't want to Go

I don't want to Get in the Train.

-Aayush

I tried my Best to replicate that feeling when I went to Railway station to bid Goodbye

to My beautiful Mom and My Brother.

        Voice Of A Drunk Twenty Two Years Old Adult!

I woke up in the morning with a mild headache and a very strong urge to not go to office. But I had to control that urge and continue living my life. But then my Friend Rebecca replied. And suddenly it hit me, the fact that I was drunk yesterday and I might have posted something wrong in someone’s wall. But I was surprised to see what I wrote because her message was full of praises. She even quoted the lines which I have bolded. Well the message looks like this.

“Don’t waste your time on things you least want, don’t waste your life on things you think you need, live for what you want and what you can stand for, there you will attend your nirvana. Not everybody can afford to become Buddha neither they can renounce the attachments. We are humans, why waste time on living life like god?

I may sound like a preacher. No I am not. I am just a twenty two years old living my life, i do not have experience or the knowledge whatsoever to talk preach. I am not a philosopher, I am just a drunk young naive guy who is searching for meaning to his life. I am drunk and I have ‘two rounds of scotch’ old experience.

I am busy searching with heart but the universe is not conspiring so that i can grasp the things I want the most. “Paulo Sir, I am sorry old man.”

But if you want something by heart, its not the universe Who conspires, you have to become the master of your own conspiracies, because wanting is not enough, not everybody is destined to meet their Alchemist.

We are born to this earth with a pre-written destiny they say.And I think life is about how you turn that pre-written destiny around to your own benefit. Life is not about living for others, its about learning to live together. Life is simplicity. I never understood why those respectful sons of bitches philosophers always had to make it tough. Make it sound like life is about competition.

I am not an enlightened one. But I sure as hell do know that life is not competition, its about finding your strength and polishing it, not to reach the top of the social chain, but share it with the person whose strength is your weakness. Its about completing yourself with your other half, life is completion not competition.

I am 4 rounds of scotch old now. But sober enough to realize that this might have started to sound like creepy suicide note. Laughing out loud. I am sorry to spam your fb wall but i am drunk and cute, that sure as hell does invite a forgiveness.”

Well she says that she forgives me. That is sweet of her. But I ended up deciding that I must drink pretty often.

How Rich I Have To Be?

"What I desire and What I need?"

The Gap In Between is the extent to which I have to be Rich.

Well I do wish I had loads of Cash On me but that is not the way I want to design my Richness.

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I have Never Felt So Romantic!!

The Woman I Will Love

I was sitting inside and embracing the warmth of My Blanket

Living Chilly Night of Winter

Counting Every minutes

Thinking About The Woman i will Love

My imagination is so Vivid

I can see her crystal clear

She is Smiling

Taking a Selfie

She is lying on that Green Grass of My Imagination

And the way the sun rose for her today

And the way the sun rays are hitting her

That Shall Be the best Selfie

Smartphones have ever taken!

I am calling her

But she is Dwelling Inside the Music of her headphones

She can’t hear me

But I hope She feels the warmth of My heartbeat

I hope she gets the Vibe

Vibe that she is the Girl I am Falling For!

So I decided,

I Would sit here and make a list

List of what I would want her to be

I would want her to be More intelligent

I hope she knows what Free Soul is

I want her to be confident

So confident for My Cocky Attitude to beat

I Want her to be my stick

When I do something wrong

I want her to be My Favorite Movie

I would like to watch All day Long

I hope she likes Dramas

Not some Blood sucking Romantic flicks

I hope she loves Decent Comedy

A person whom I can share my Flash Drive with!

I hope she loves decent Music

Not mainstream music that uses auto tune

I would like her to have a beautiful smile

I would always kiss her

Be it under the scorching Sun or Be it Under the moon!

I hope she likes reading

I hope she Has got big pile of Best books to read

I know I am asking for too much

But she is the one

I want my heartbeats to be Replaced with.

I hope she keeps Journal

Why am I elongating this “I hope” streak?
Am I going crazy?

But I do hope that she smells like Daisy


I will Love her Selflessly

But let her be the Girl

I hope of
I would let her steal my Heartbeat

Let her be the Girl

Let her be the Woman I would love

Woman I want to marry my Life with!

-Aayush

I Want To Buy A Guitar!

I want To Buy A Guitar…

Sitting inside the office Cubicle

I was thinking about the world I am going to live

World I am going to live half a decade later

It’s funny how the Years seem to pass faster

When you are worrying about the future

Days become months

Months become Years

And You have half a decade in Your plate

And You sit back inside

Inside the New Office’s cubicle

Thinking and Wondering what You have achieved

And you realize how worrying was not the answer!

I am not that Guy

I am convincing myself

For I am Going to buy a Guitar!

I am going to sing my heart out

May be Impress some ‘Angels’

Fall in love often

Break my heart a few time

I will buy a Guitar

And Do the crime

For I may Find a Love

And sooth her with my fallible voice

For Such an ecstasy

It comes for a very small price!

And may be I Find a partner in her

Buy beautiful Ring for her

We will Make a family out of each other

For I am going to Buy a Guitar

Make some new Friends

I shall Learn to trust

Put some trust to test

And see it being broken may be

But then I will learn to live like Human

Not like some Social freaks!

I will write my own rules

Live my own terms

I will see the curve of my life going Up and down

But I will be the king

And the Owner of The Precious Crown

I will be happy

Some Followers of Civilization codes may frown

But I will live High

And never let myself down

For I will Buy a Guitar

I think I should start writing song

I shall Start Penning it right now!